fai's boy dark room and it is now 04:39:24 am

11.26.2004
ROC

Just reached the training camp in Taiwan yesterday... It's windy, but warmer than expected. I was in the wing instructors' bunk, and settled my stuff there.. tired setting up the laptop and all the other stuffs wanting to start doing my editing of the video stuffs i've taken during the day. Only to realise that the DV cable to connect to the pc wasn't packed in... trust them to do it..

I just moved into the auxiilary instructors' bunk today... much better as i didn't know any of the pple in the previous bunk.. not that i know any of these guys, but preferred them as they were all NSFs... not the regular donks.. They probably got scared of me when i wore my aomc T-shirt.. haha..

I had to go for a recce for a navigational exercise in 2 days.. and set up all the checkpoints... hmm... i never carried 5 pickets and a monkey ram up the dam hill before.. and tot that it's a cadet's life. hmmm shoulders' aching now.

We were back in camp by lunch... but by then, i've already eaten a chicken cutlet, and pao and downed a coke on the way back.. aaaah.... life as an instructor. Pretty much didn't do anything the rest of the day. Only went up the cemetary with the cadets and taught them how to use their siva compass. -i've always wanted to be an instructor.. well at least i showed the kids i've some knowledge that they don't have..

I think my NSF life is pretty much wholesomely complete.. -started as any normal person in bmt...3 months later became a clerk in a recruitment office... then spent a month in airforce school.. then another month in australia to fly a plane... after that went to Officer School for 10 months in which i've learnt so much and was allowed to continue taking photos outfield. During which i was in Taiwan for infantry training, then to Brunei for Jungle Survival course. After my commissioning, i was posted to the army officer's manangement center to manage the holding list - my fair share of staff/office work... before finally heading to taiwan again to do instructional and support work. ... Guess i've done pretty much everything...and on th 16th Dec... the very day that i wake up in taipei... on the way back in the SIA Raffles Class seat.... I WILL BE DONE..... nice

But i think however 'blessed' my 2.5years in the army has been.. i think it's countered by a pretty screwed up personal life.. hmm... trade off?.. i think i could have handled alot of situations better. But even after all those 'mistakes' i've made.. i dun thnk i've learnt much to change...

Maybe like what ethan said in ... or is it before?.. haha.. "that we never change the way we are ultimately"?... the way we handle things... are almost similar throughout our lives. Oh.. btw... i watched that show twice on the plane.. Never got to finish it though as i fell asleep the first one.. and there wasn't enuff time for the second round. But i did connect with alot of things they spoke about. I ALWAYS thought that shows like these are meant for pple like nicky... (not implaying anything).. but i've never expected to be so..... so.... you know.. 'feel' for a movie. Alot of stuffs they spoke about hit me... spot pinned in the issues i'm currently facing.. hiaz... I totally agree when he said that as humanz... sometimes we feel that we 'enjoy' suffering as it keeps as wanting something better in life. But sometimes that wanting something better in life makes as the horrible preson that we don't want to be. ...just one of the many things... i dun even know how to phrase them properly... I'll probably watch it again on the way back.. hopefully it'll still be playing.

I did some reading on the bus to the camp... the show they were screen was anaconda2.. i hate shows like these. .. plain stupid. I was reading by Tony Parsons... Once again, for a person that don't usually read.. i felt emotionally drawned to the book... Argh.. Louis biting his arse again.. ha.. Esp when the writer depicts his feelings to his son that he wasn't living with anymore. I felt like the boy.. fuck.. and i didn't expect the pains for a father that only sees his kid once a week. I brought me back to when my father was still alive.. and to a certain extent, i've never felt how HE felt. ... I was on the recieving end. I was that boy... oblivious to the emotions that my dad felt. Was it THAT bad?.. seeing me once in a while? I certainly wished that i had dealt with the whole matter better then.. but hey.. i was ... 16?..18? Crap..... Am gonna try to finish the book when i'm here.. hopefully.. Guess i would as i will have a lot of reading time when i'm out manning the checkpoints for 3 days...

Okie... it's dinner time now... need to grab some grub. Been smoking a good share of cigs.. here. it's windy/cold at night.. not to mention lonely. ...naturally..

| louis at 17:05

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At 5:39 PM, November 26, 2004, Anonymous said...: Tekan the cadets will ya? And bring back some nice taiwan ciggies for me dude.

- jamaicansexgod
At 5:05 PM, November 27, 2004, louis said...: I bought 3 packs of cigs so far... and opened all of them aready.. had to try lar... this new mabro one.. blue package one.. 'mild flavour'.. but it has more tar and nicotine in them lor...and thse 2 others.. which i dunno wat the name is. okie lar.. quite okie.

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