11.05.2004
...something to remember...before it finally goes....

Somehow it's begining to kick in....// We were suppose to have our first high tea together at mariott. We were suppose to have our shop house. We were suppose to have our little dog and cat. We were suppose to have our kickass holiday in alsaka, mongolia, nepal and tibet. We were suppose to get married outdoors under a marque with white flowers on the grass. We were suppose to name our baby Dylan and Estella. They were suppose to be twins. We were suppose take our nude wedding photos. // We were suppose to be THE couple. Somehow i will know that the moment she finds someone else to give her heart to, i'll be too shattered to know that i've lost someone that shared the exact same future as me. And somehow i know that even if i try getting back what's lost, it'll be a futile attempt to do so coz she's one person that loves wholeheartedly. She's one person that gives her entire soul to the person she loves. And i will forever know that i've lost what i once loved. // I hope my plane crashes... ... And in the greenday mood now, i wanna be woken up when the Boulevard of Broken Dreams ends, turning the living life into a waiting game forever. Love you dearie. //

| louis at 23:25