I cant switch it on and there's nothing i can do about it here. Just got to wait till i get home to the charger.
Some people asked me what do i like about christmas. I asked them if i could list down things which i Dislike about christmas instead. There's nothing nice about it, and there aint much i like about it. What's it with people shopping and getting things for people just because it was 'decreed' to be the 'season of giving'? i mean.. if i constantly thruout the year get things and prezzies for people, must i still make an effort to purposely look for something during christmas. Dont get me wrong, i like receiving and giving, but shouldnt we do it constantly? - which makes more meaning to the giving than to 'force' ourselves to 'just get something lah'. Oh well. I'm rattling coz i dont have a phone.
Then i said i dont like Christmas jingles... and then someone said to me..' isnt Chinese New Year ones worse?' - true true.
Birday is tomolo and i still dont have any concrete plans to 'celebrate' the aging of my old self. I given up planning already coz i really dun feel like planning for it. So maybe i'll end up watching teevee than sleep. Or play mahjong till the morning.
I don;t like cakes... esp those that people buy from shops. I'm not a cake person. I'm a pie/tart person or pudding. Cake feels so.... cakey. So everytime there's a cake during birthday it's usually not meant for eating. It's meant for throwing around.
I think i should go for a run. i ate a big box of fries with italian cheese dressing yesterday just before i fell asleep. Melbourne has this crazy "Lord of the Fries" place near the hotel - which i make an effort to visit everytime i'm here. So i feel full of potatoes inside me now. Oh and guess what... i forgot to bring my wallet. I manage to dig a US$20 note from my bag yesterday so hopefully that'll be enuff. If not i found another 10Euros in another part of my bag too.
It's a long post.
Sometimes i dunno wat i've done wrong. I mean... havent i been doing everything right recently. I hate hate when people use old / past things that had happened against me. I hate it coz it makes me feel like everything else i've done aint worth it. Doesnt everyone have their past skeletons and stories to tell? Doesnt that make them them? and then coz they've doing certain things before they can become better people in the future? It's so easy to just fuck everything up, so why do people take the extra effort not to? Dunno la. Everything i do seems wrong.
BLEAH i'm turning 27 yrs old. - when i was 17, i had this mentality that people at 25-30yrs old have stopped playing computer games, and have an apartment, and paying bills, and working to save up for a family, and investing money and all those adult crap. How come i'm still playing with my PSP... and thinking of buying a wii or a PS3?