Aging
I was having dinner with my mom and some relatives from australia. Then i suddenly turned to my mom and asked her how old will she be next saturday? (her birthday is on the 5th november). She answered me "54".
The last time i remembered my mom's age was when I was in Primary School and us little children were comparing each others' parents' ages. Then it was 38 or so. My mom is 54~!!. To me she hasnt aged a single bit!
Brings me wondering how we get older each year, and living as we are living. nothing much changes, and we move on to the next year and so on. Then I noticed that I haven't really looked at my mom for a long while. It's always a 'look' at her, but not exactly 'LOOKING'..(if ya get wad i mean...) And i realised that she has changed and 'aged' from the image i had of her in my mind. But it's so hard to erase that image I had of her when I was that primary school boy.
Then I turned to Johan, who was also at the dinner, and asked him, "It's been 10 years since we took our streaming in sec 2. Time INDEED flies no?"
It so does. Makes me worry a little that I'll not be able to finish my extra long list of things that I want to achieve in my lifetime...
shopping list
Debt collection day.
Afterwhich, i was with my aunt at the Tanglin club helping her plan for an photo exhibition that her group is organising. That was pretty much my afternoon.
I did some window shopping. Yes, I'm a closet weekday afternoon window shopper. I so need to plan to get certain things for my up and coming life. So I made a list.
1) Black leather shoes. (mine is so worn out I've already serviced it once)
2) Dress Watch. (I'm using a Casio from my army days... time to move on)
3) Wallet. (My card case seem to be too small for my own good)
4) Work bag. (I don't think I'll be bringing my sling bag for work no?)
5) Sunnys. (Why not look the look while at it? hehe)
So there... my birthday is on the 31st Dec... It's never tooooo early now no?
NEW LOOK
Oh... an in case anyone hasn't noticed,
I've changed the outlook of my blog. Waddaya think? Thanks to mimosa who did this while at work (pretending to me hardworking all~!)
Any feedback? I love the look. Miss my darkroom though!
It has been a very tough 2 weeks. I'm pretty much down to nothing in the moolah, and thanks to my close friends i'm getting along. Nicky and Diana has been gems and I totally owe it to them for helping me out.
Was just thinking to myself today as i was walking home, about some events that has happened over the last couple of months. As many may know, I've gotten myself out of a relationship that doesnt need to be re-introduced ever. Of coz it is impossible to say that it was empty and there was nothingness over the span of 6over months when i was with her. There were obviously moments that I probably enjoyed, along with mostly others that I didn't.
More often or not when a relationship goes bad, the bad memories seem to cloud the mind - helping you 'Move on' and making you forget the sappy part of it that binds you down. And after that push and you think that you are going good and enjoying your 'new' life, the other type of memory pushes in. I'm not saying the going all sensitive and back-longing type of thing, it's more... of a pondering. It's not even the 'what-went-wrong' phrase and 'what should i do/not do next time', 'where are the faults, and what can make me better person' stuff. It's just a ... pondering.
Many probably think I've gotten out of that phrase and have totally 'erased' that out of my life. Perhaps. Or a more accurate answer would be I've managed to chuck so far back at the corner of a narrow canal in my head that does bother me as much.
That being said, sometimes it still does. Like how the past week, i was confronted with things that I see on the streets that are pinpointed at making me remember. I don't get all wobbly and my mind doesnt get all that flash back stuff (thank god), but there is part of me that feels pretty much alone in all of this.
None of the guys probably want to talk about it. Coz it was a issue that almost split me apart from them. None of the girls want to talk about it for obvious bias reasons. Most of the time I myself try not to bother, and... walk away. But in the end, it'll be nice to talk to someone who might actually understand.
Well.. It's a long post, and i'm just feeling a lil thoughtful tonite.
It's easy to say things like 'move on' and 'get over it'. It's easy to even do them sometimes. What's not easy to do is to 'carry on' - 'moving on' and 'carry on' - getting over it.
Makes sense? Maybe only to me.
Me 
After months (maybe years) of not going to fat frogs.. it sure was a time of.... memories when we were there. Esp when Nicky was working there at that time
Here are some pics for all you in aussieland who missed out!
Pictures... are.. heh heh.. almost 2 weeks old.. haha..
handyman
Old news... but i stayed at normanton for a couple of days building the cupboard and just helping em with the living room and stuff.. here are some of the pics...
of course there's nicky having fun with his..... living room garnishing..
it's 10am
It's coming 10am.. and i think i'm giving up trying to sleep.
I went online and booked my advance theories and my bike lessons all at a go. Cept I'm not too sure about whether the car one did get thru due to the ever reliable internet booking system. Guess I'll have to try again tomolo..(or later today rather)
Now on to Battlestar Galactica..yes yes me thes semi-sci-fi junkie. I've been stupidly waiting for the rest of Season 2 which i last saw episode 10. Apparently, this first part of season 2 (epi 1 - 10) is suppose to be a closure of Season 1. And then the rest that's coming out.. is suppose to be the start of "Season 2"~! Genius... I read this entire forum on why they're doing it this way.. etc etc... the costs, the revenue, the advertising involved, the making, the animation.. all those factors make poor viewers like me sit and wait forever for one episode.
Already i'm sick of waiting one week for the next episode of LOST to come out. man.. i'm such a tee-vee junkie...
I think I'm going crazy.. it's 7am, and I should be sleeping. (or rather, waking up)
I just started on my floor plans on my moving in plan next year. A long way to go, but come to think of it, i've only got less than a year to save up 20grand. I wonder how i'm going to earn that amount in a year. But nevertheless, a plan is a plan, and i'm planning to plan.
Think i'll be doing most of the handy work myself.. the platforms and the partitions.Thanks to all the experience from the Hive. - which by the way, saw green last month, and will be seeing green this month too! Damn excited. Will be doing some.. hush hush marketing work for them when i start my job next year.
Think i'm going to crash now. Havent been eating, sleeping, or working well recently.
boring rainy sunday
As you can see.. this is the 3rd post today.
I've just finish episode 97 of this anime and the latest episode of Lost.
I had macdonalds again... damn i think the 24hr no-minimum delivery thingy is the most sinful thing that has ever happened this year.
Am so very broke this week. Stupid cheque had the wrong name. And i need to go change it. Oh well, I'm gonna get a full time job soon, so hopefully that'll change something.
Till then.. here are some pics that we took on thurs at club momo.. after watching this 1970s Chinese movie called human lantern. It was so old skool that i fell asleep. - think Kill bill at 40 yrs ago... add in the strings and poster colour blood. plus the thick eyebrows and flat makeup. yawns...
Somemore pics...
Some of the pictures.. from the dive trip.
Takes forever to get the photo thing on this working..
nightmare on delta avenue
I tried sleeping at 10pm tonite, and I woke up twice in half and hour.
I cant remember what exactly happened the first time i woke up, but I remembered lying on my bed staring at ceiling, unable to move. I was unable to open my eyes too. Then after what i tot was a couple of mins, i began to feel my body again.
Went back to bed. This time, i dreamt that i socked some rich shithead on the bus, and beat the shit out of him. I alighted from the bus to normanton park. I remembered that there was a very thick mist, and i asked my companion (at this point i thought it was nicky) to take a walk with me in the mist.
Whilst walking along that stretch of road, i saw some shadows moving ard and rememebered saying "hey..~! This mist thing is damn cool lor.. the shadows look like lil 'ghosts'". Which upon further inspection, happened to be a lady figure with long hair walking beside meeeeeee. And i was staring so fckin hard at it~!
Once again i woke up staring at the ceiling, and unable to move again. And then after a couple of mins.. i sat up and was damn troubled. Then i realised that tonight was the first time i put lavender oil directly on the burner. (usually mix it wih water, but thanks to the influence of nicky...)
I Thought LAVENDER on the burner is suppose to be sooothing and make people go to SLEEP!
Carpenter
Friday at liquid room was pretty horrible if you ask me. As i was on a job, i was stressed with getting the shots. but the place was so damn crowded that i couldnt get around much. And with the client wanting me to take shots of the crowd drinking their product, it doesnt help but narrows me down to very specific pictures (the last time they asked why i was taking pictures of people drinking champagne instead of their product. Anywayz, i ended up at Attica for a bit, then home for a gooood sleep.
Saturday. I wanted to start the day early, but knowing me, i slept in till about 3pm. Made my way to Nicky's place and started with the kitchen cabinets. Brought back memories tho, on how when i started my shop, working on hammering the wood together, fixing things all by myself at the shop and all. I then started to work on making a cupboard for diana. Her current one is crashing almost all the time now, so me playing carpenter, embarked on the task of making one for her .... out of 2 kitchen cabinets.
Woke up nicky and we headed down to Ikea for some re-supply and dinner. Must i stress that i hate Ikea on the weekends... It's annoying - kids and the works.
I cant seem to sleep. Have been cracking my head on how to put up the bars for the cupboard. Ikea doesnt sell the correct sizes and i'm already thinking of heading down to the shop first thing in the morning to make my own... which i know by know isnt such a good idea - knowing me and wood. (it might take forever and many attempts)
Will see how.. prolly watch a dvd now
The Run
I did something today that i thought was almost impossible. I ran from my place to Nicky's place. Literally 'armed' with the nice ipod armband that diana bought for me, i set off, intending only to make it near ikea. That was my furthest point till now. And coming from someone with a 4-time sprained ankle record and a 2 month no-run period, it's really a challenge.
Well, to cut the short story short, i made it eventually.. without stopping, and ended up having some instant noodles with sausages/egg for dinner. topping it up with half a bottle of coke. So much for exercising.
I left their place at around 4am, and was hoping to catch a cab home. But waddathink... nobody from normanton comes home at 4am, with exceptions to nicky and diana. So i started running home, only to realise after a few steps, that my right leg is fucking up on me again. I struggled to the end of the expressway, and then surrendered.
Well, at least i kinda figured out my war song during my runs now.. it's this japanese song called 'Alive' found on the Naruto 4th soundtrack. yupp.. till my next run.
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