8.31.2004
travelling plans... >Was with the guys just now.. having drinks at this place called "Tattoo Pub". Not that i have a tattoo, but Ang has 2 huge ones on his arm and leg.. haha.. so maybe that's why they let us in.. or maybe there weren't any customers... >Was thinking while having beers, about my travelling plans once i'm done with NS. Was actually tinking of getting to Beijing, to visit Soichiro as well as get some jobs there shooting bands.. and any other stuffs that i can get my hands on. Then there's this part of me that also wants to get to Europe, UK in particular to crash with ang and the guys who are also going on work visas. I'm not sure if Beijing will be the pivoting point of my life, but maybe... just maybe i'll settle there for a few years. At least i've got friends there to crash and chill with. Musicians to be exact.. so it'll be a grp of rather hippish people, not the boring.. bankers or IT or watever else... >But I'll see... The only problem is, i'll never seem to be getting my degree.. and i'll never seem to be going the 'normal' route.. which has always been what i want, but i really wonder is that something that i'll regret? Think of it.. me being 30, and a diploma holder with only ONE skill... I really hope that one skill turns out to be my life saver and my money earner. >Come to think of it in another way... I think of my life as a short one. .. what better way than to life it of one as i planned it to be?.. Without plans. I love buying toys as a kid, when the package was in those aluminium thingy where you can't see wat's inside?. like the kinder buenos and those 50cent machine where you turn the knob to get something? I find my life like dat... one turn and some suprise appears. Think i'm following my kid instincts now.. hope it's something good. >that's 3 mths from now. (fingers crossed!)
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8.30.2004
back from island i'm back from the island... Pulau Besar, to be exact. Always tot it was called 'coconut island'. The fact was, the island was called Pulau Besar, the resort over there was called "coconut island resort". That's where the confusion came in. I didn't stay in the coconut island resort, but stayed at Aseania Resort, the one other resort in that island. Both resorts are side by side. Talk about competition? well, both had very few people. haha.. I hardly saw anyone else visiting the island. Lets see... I saw a total of 5-6 foreigners and 7 other asian visiters. That makes a total of less than 20 people. Of coz not forgetting a huge malay family of 40pax that was there to celebrate their grandparent's 50th anniversary. D and i got to know this man, named Noor. He was a taxi driver in KL, but also does traditional massage. So, being me, i had a go at his wonderful hands. He massaged my all-so-sore back. It was great.. lossened all of it. He also did D's hand.. which had seom bone problem where her thumb was. And it was for free! It always pays to be friendly while you travel... you never know who you're gonna meet. heh heh. Our driver, was called 'Din'. A very happy person. he brought along his wife and kid when fetching us back from Mersing. In a hugh 9-seater van.. for just D and I. Bought rambutans for about RM$3 per 2KG. That's bloody cheap. a huge bunch of rambutans... i got a bunch for my mum, and D got another for her family. I'll try to load up the pics from the island.... It was absolutely great. I have always wanted to be on an island... with as little people as possible. This island was one of them. It was so peaceful... D and I slept in a tree house one afternoon.. the feeling after i woke up was simply amazing. At times, it almost seemed that we were the only ones on the island... Oh well, the water aint that great.. but hey, everything else made up for it.. and even more. Not to mention, the food was really good. Service... i didn't complain.. so that's good. haa.. And for the price we paid.. it was a bargain. We could have gotten it cheaper if we went direct to the resort, and made our own transport arrangement, but hell, all that trouble.. I wanted this trip to be a hassel-free... all inclusive serviced trip.. ANd i got wad i wanted.... nice... . Oh.. the only problem... sandflies.. and mosquitoes at nite.. Di and I found the mosquitoe repellent only when we were checking out.,. how fun. =(.. ok. to sleep now, gotta go back to work tomolo.. back.. to dreadful work!
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8.27.2004
to besar island tomolo >>okie.. i spent my leave.. basically staying at home, printing photos, and printing photos, watched SingaporeIdol, then printed more photos. Then cleaned up this page.. but now the comments tab is missing!... sigh. who gives me comments anyway? come to think of it, who actually reads my blog??? haha... i wonder. >>Sometimes when i view the entries of other pple, i tend to see a certain trend of poetic rehtoric. Most dun make sense. So where does sense in poetry comes from when it's all so personal? I mean i can write somthing like "ME-LIKA-EATA-LOSTA-PASTA" And i carry on the sentence into a paragraph.. and so on. To you it may be trash, but maybe to me it's a string of my life and it's meaning... Hokay, i have to admit, contrary to wat ivan says.... I don't write much. It's already damn amazing i'm actually typing. haha >>I'm off to this island tomolo. I don't even know wat the island is like. I've never been there. When i get back and you see and angry post, that means it's a shit island. But nevertheless.. a $400 trip.. here i come!
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8.26.2004
new look I'm back from lanning with the guys... I think norman's getting overly pumped.. he has been asking us for sessions very often these days. I'm on leave tomolo.. yey... and fri .. going to some island off Mersing on fri...till sun.. Hopefully my travel agent gets me my stuffs done up. D's now sleeping. Snoring. Piig. She had her graduation today. My... when i got there in the morning, i was greeted by this roll of graduates standing alone the entrance. "Thank you for coming...Morning...hello...etc.."... I thought it looked like a professional whore house. No offence to the grads but ya.. SO PRish! haha... I almost got too overwhelmed by their attitude. In the, 'gee' kinda way. It'salos kinda weird that my ex is in the same class as D. Weird. Hopefully i'll get some of my prints done when D goes for her night classes. I've to complete a personal album by the time Carrie opens her boutique. The problem is, i have no idea what to put inside my book! It has been a tiring week thus far.. considering that i only worked on mon and tues, i think i'm not doing too well. My ORD is in november, and her i am using up my leave. I hope i have enough for my vietnam trip in nov... ooh-well.
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8.22.2004
moody sunday I just lost my arrowhead that i bought from beijing 2 years ago. It was a precious artifect that i kept with me thruout. I never left the country without it. Call me sentimental, call me dumb, childish and silly, but i really loved it. Where at? at one of the worst b-day party i've ever been. the birthday girl was late. We were already started eating, we made most of the food. And it could have been ..hey.. our own lil party. But wtf, it was a pretty boring, plan-less event. I was drained doing nothing, trying to keep myself entertained. oh.. and guess who lost it for me?.. my very own D - whom i left with specific instructions to keep it for me, coz i know that she knows that it's important to me. Wat a bitch head she is. Totally stupid. dunno why i'm still stuck with her. maybe it's becoz i was looking forward to her flying away and all, leaving me all alone. that was a good idea... and indeed, i really preferred it without her. but wtf, coming back to earth, i tink i'll have to deal with the matter. I really can't seem to find a reason why i'm with her.. and no.. that hoobastanky song does justify it either.
anywayz.. today was pretty moody.. maybe becoz last nite, D was telling me how she really doesn't like how the guys are treating her. Something about not givingher enuff respect and all that. And her being slow, ditzy and bimboish. SO i guess she hates knowing that she is like dat?.. hmmm.. oh well.. nothing i could say helped, she wanted to spill everything out,... i'm suppose to listen. (hey..isn't tat wad the venus/mars book taught us?), then when i kept quiet, she got angry that i'm quiet. wtf... females are really weird no? Well, she was actually contemplating to stop going out with the gang anymore. She said she had enuff of being pushed around, and being taken for granted that she's a nice person. stupid i think is more like it, being trampled over and not saying anything right at the begining.. she is nice i must say. But that's the exact reason of her downfall. The world is so complicated, and a fairy-tale just doesnt exist. Something that just dun get in her. And her being nice and all ... is honestly taken for granted by not just some pple in the gang, but by her working pple, her ex-working pple, hell.. lets just throw in her parents too. And one more thing.. I totally hate being at her place. Each time i'm there it seems like i'm just waiting for time to just pass.. that's why i like sleeping there, hoping that each moment will pass quick. I totally hate it that the fact that her parents want to get to know me.. hey .. you know wad?.. I DON'T~! geez... can't i just be left alone? i remembered someone once told me her mantra.. "in order not to sin in this world, .. just stay at hone and sleep".. To me.. it's now more like.. "to stay out of trouble, dun stir shit in the first place". Yes.. I'm being childish, i'm being selfish, i'm being totally self-centred and a anal prick. HEY It's MY FUCKING LIFE... Does anyone even cares how i feel?.. Each time i organize somebody's birthday.. somebody's something... i'm always.. standing in the backstage peering thru the red curtains. And hey.. guess wad DID i do at my birthday?.. plan it myself.. hah.. wtf. Maybe i'm being taken advantage too? maybe i should just stay in my darkroom and eventually turn into a vampire... I just feel sooooooo ANTI-SOCIAL now.... dun bother me.
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8.17.2004
monday coffee Just got home from a 'business' discussion with Nick, Johan and Carrie. She's finally setting up her cafe. Johan's finally got his confirmed PES status, and nicky is bogged down with Mr Tang's ever pushing for more out of the miserly sum of money he's paying him. I mean come on, think about it... for photography, videography, 2 days worth of shoots, he also wants a poster design, custom-made photo album, 40 pieces of special die-cut envelopes with custom printing and folds, all prints in 4R with white border, and a post-edit of the video footage into a vcd, mtv format. Guess how much? Professionally, i'd say something like 3-4K. And just becoz this pain in the arse is nicky's 'friend', we're charging 1k. WTF... and the best part was... this shithead is so darn rich he can buy the island of Bintan. Rich fucker. Sometimes it's almost irritating... it seems like the richer you are, the more stingy and calculative you are on your cash flow. And what's even more irritating is that these rich pots can spend large amounts of money on stupid golf games and pay their photographers walnuts... wait... it's pea...NUTs... Ok... not that i'm getting much of the post-work... i'm just the shooter and thinktank. Johan on the other hand, is highly frustrated that he's PES B... and with his acadamic qualification, i think his national service route aint looking too bright... it looks almost dim.. with a tinch of lens flare... Oh well.. at least he's finally getting to doing it. Stupid NS. I mean, how more not stupid can it get? Carrie seems like the only one in her fairytale come true.. setting up her own boutique, at a location... that seems to have good marketing potential in the near future. Good thing she remembers us. And good thing she now has budget to pay us. I'm not saying that we folks are all money minded and all, but really... there HAS to be some form of... payment no? I guess doing charity all day ain going to make me a saint... so why not earn a little more.. there is some truth in motivation in the pay cheque. Think it makes me shoot better. > And this is exactly what people dun get... Like what nicky said.. about the IMPOSSIBLE TRIANGLE... >think of a triangle with 3 sides 1corner is cost 1corner is quality 1corner is time EG: If a job is done fast and of good quality.. it aint gonna be cheap If a job is cheap and takes a short time for completion, it aint gonna be good quality If a job is cheap and of good quality, it aint gonna take a short time etc,etc,etc,etc..... >and so the IMPOSSIBLE TRIANGLE goes on..... Hmmmm.... we had such a long talk on Carrie's layout, theme, plan, colour, etc etc... Sometimes i think she's getting a really good deal getting the 3 of us out to talk. 3 consultations at the same time... But it's a good thing too, i learn alot about myself and from all the other ideas that we brainstorm during coffee. We really should record everything down one of these days...maybe we can sell it.. bwahaha..
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8.16.2004
FRIENDS Once again ... it's been a long long time since i'm actually writing again. I can't stand the fact that i can't log onto this site when i'm in office.. lousy internet thingy. And i can't stand it that by the time i'm home, i'm just wanting to sleeep... National Day's just over and it was a bash getting the gang over for potty luck and watched tee-vee. Kinda feel like getting the apartment across my place would be a good idea ... if we all stay near each other... Aint that cool? Of coz it'll be subjected to lots of living pains... 'FRIENDS' still remains as a tee-vee show afterall no? Think that in real life it just wouldn't really work out. Too much personal space being envaded. And i think my house-mates wun be too happy with me and my smelly dark room. D's just flown off to Perth, and coming back tomolo. Spent the entire day today sleeping.. and printing photos. Dinner with the gang, coffee... had some androgyish topics.. and that was that, back home for printing. And i think if i dun get some sleep i'll have a bad start to the weeeek. Yawns..
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