fai's boy dark room and it is now 03:55:26 am

5.04.2005
The dark week

And so the week has been. 2 failed negotiations in work-wise. Hopefully get some next week.

I've been on a discussion board on yahoo groups with some of my secondary school friends. These are a group of people that i werent too close to in secondary school coz i was being my aloof self and hated PR-ing at that time (what has changed?).

So everyone was talking about getting married. Who's getting together with who, when they're getting married. Talks about having kids and starting a family and all that. Some are already married, and some already have kids. Mind you these are of the same age as me!

I mean - talking about marriage and all that seems so bloody far for me and my group of friends. ALywin the nearest tho. Maybe i'v attended too many weddings, and makes me a little wary on the promise of forever love. Maybe it's the usual guy-syndrome of 'commitment'. Or maybe it's just not time for me to settle down. The thought isn't even there in the first place - let alone planning for it. Oh well. Interesting answers though when i posted a message asking them "what makes them want to settle down - and why they think the person they're with is the right one for them"

One of their answers touched me though

>>"Compromise? Quite frankly, I do a lot of the compromising, but I suspect that my situation is unique, seeing that my husband has Asperger's syndrome. That means he is mildly autistic (actually,everyone is autistic to some degree). Hence he cannot comprehend somethings the way "normal" people comprehend, so it is even moredifficult for him to change his ways. Therefore I am the one who has to bend lar. I'm willing to, because I think he is worth it."<<

oh well my time will come. At the meantime - I'll be trying not to hurt the people around me with the selfish decisions i make.

| louis at 16:58