7.09.2004
in sydney!

i'm in sydney now... just got here yesterday. Went to visit my 80yr old grandma yesterday and today. damn it man, she's really not how i use to remember her. The last time i saw her, she was running ard, playing mahjong till late, shopping, walking alot...and doing things like.. anyone else would be doing.. ..yesterday when saw her, she was so....... different. she cant use her right side of her body. she's bed ridden, can speak properly.. can eat by herself, lost memory. I mean... shit man. it's totally fucking irritating, that when a person is up and about.. moving and all.. we seldom appreciated them, and when things happen, everyone feels like shit. shit.

The cousins had dinner together last nite, 6 of us, jessie, eric, vincent, tracy, me and my bro. a REALLY wonderful time i must say. all of us seemed cheerful and all that, in deep dark contrast with the tension that the adults are going thru now. took a picture, will upload asap.. and no, i dun use digital.

going off to melbourne ..like in a few hours... will see how's it there.

missed the days that my grandma cooked soup for me
eric misses grandma cutting up fruits for him in the middle of the day
brother missed her mahjong
tracy misses her being up and about at her place...
all of us miss her being the last her, well i guess it'a all part of the process of aging. i hope to die a lil younger... sigh

| louis at 15:21